Bon Appetit!

I'm sure many of you have seen or at least heard of the movie " Julie and Julia" but Mom, Dad, and I recently rented it and really enjoyed it. ( Well mom and i of course, poor dad fell asleep throughout the movie.) There were some parts, like most movies now days that could have easily been left out, but it led me to one of 3 new years resolutions. TO LEARN HOW TO COOK!

Although i am not able to do a recipe everyday due to the time that would take, i have decided that i am going to put a new recipe up that i have made each week. The movie was so inspiring to learn how to cook, i'm up for the challenge! :)
I'll also be able to encorporate pictures now thanks to my parents who gave me a digital camera for Christmas. It's been so long since i've had a camera its no longer a habit to pull it out, ( I know dad, big statement for me to say lol) but i'm going to do better, and keep this blog updated this semester! In the meantime, i hope you all have had a wonderful Christmas and New years, now back to the real world whether it be school or work. It's a new year!

Stay tuned for recipes to come! :)
-Hannah

"To blessed to be stressed"

I have to give credit to the title of this blog to my dad. While taking the youth group to New York one year for Choir tour, dad found a shirt with this quote on it, and it has been a favorite saying of ours ever since. Never mind that that same t-shirt ended up shrinking and could only fit a toddler, it serves a great message and I'm finding it to be more true each and every day.

Starting the evening off with the Candlelight Service at Church, The night could not have been any more perfect with a wonderful night of worship, dinner with the family, and a wonderful Christmas morning to come!

Christmas morning soon came, and we had an incredible breakfast, but the memories made will last a lifetime. Cliche' i know, but i really mean it. I've never had such an appreciation for family like i do now. How great the fathers love for each one of us, that he would not only send his son to be born to one day save us, but that same, gracious, limitless, God cares enough to place people into our lives, to encourage and love us, all so that we may see his unfailing love for us.

I'm not saying families are perfect, in fact broken-ness is a part of life, however, there is nothing that the Lord can't redeem. No amount of sin, can make him love you less, or even more, that's the beauty of grace.

This Christmas, i realized I am showered in grace, i am blessed, and I am now more than ever in need of savior!

Although the Christmas season is filled with endless amounts of joy i would be lying if i told you there were not times that i lost that joy, nevertheless it is so great to be reminded that:

When I am prideful- He humbles me

When I am dirty- He is flawless

When I am cranky- He is patient

When I am angry- He is slow to anger

AND WHEN I AM

Broken- He heals me

You may feel content, I did for a while, but unless the Lord surrounds every aspect of your life, you will always desire more. It took me being broken to realize, how much of a mess i truly am, and then and only then, can he begin to heal you, because you finally surrender every part of your life, you have so despereately been longing to complete. He is the only since of Joy there is, no toy, article of clothing, or amount of money will ever fill that void, only Jesus!

I know Christmas has passed, but i encourage you to take away this very message, the God, who sent his son in the form of a baby boy, is the same God who cares for you, and longs to give you unspeakable and undeniable Joy! May we all carry that into the new year!

You hold me now!

I couldn't find the song I wanted to have playing in the background, so ill post the lyrics...

"You Hold Me Now" by hillsong

On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace

All my fear is swept away
In the light of your embrace
When Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now, 
You hold me now

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails

When Your name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

When the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now, 
You hold me now

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name

So I'm going to be more real in this blog, than i have been in any other previous post. These past few days I feel like dating, relationships, and even the act of being pursued, have been brought to mind, and rather than trying to explain it through texts, or even in passing, i really wanted to take time and write out exactly how i feel about dating and what the Lord has led me to believe.

Dating in modern day has been made out to be casual, and i believe it is everything but that.

Let me explain myself a little better, I know you have to date to get to the point of marriage, but if you don't see qualities in him/ her that you would want in your spouse, or they are not pushing you to be a better man of God (And more specifically Girls- Protecting your purity as well as leading you spiritually) then what is the point?

Here are my thoughts...

Guys:

If you see a girl, be aware of why you notice her, is it her looks, or is it more to that? Looks can attract you yes, but is it her heart that draws you close to her, is it the love of the lord that you are attracted to? Because if it isn't, there is no point, nor need to go any further to pursue a relationship with her. 

That's biblical ( 2 cor. 6:14)

Don't "date just to date", and not to "learn as you go" You can learn from the Lord without putting both yours and her heart on the line time and time again.

Girls:

We are called to be pursued, we are not to do the chasing, but to cling to the lord with all that we have knowing in his time, he will bring that man that will pursue YOU.

Notice this puts a lot of weight on the guys, but not really, see they are called to pursue the Lord with all they have as well and when ( and only when) they are at a place that they can lead the two of you in a Christ centered relationship then they are to move forward. As women, we are beautiful, valued, and so special to the Lord. 

Relationships now are so skewed; I have to admit that up until two years ago, i found myself falling for the fairy tale story line and longing for my prince to sweep me off my feet, carry me away, and we would live happily ever after. However as glamorous as that sounds, its not about you at all. The SOLE and primary purpose of a relationship between two believers is to push one another towards our God.  

If the Lord were to take you now, would you be ready? Would you be completely avaliable, or would you hold back? You may think, of course not, I would go now. But ill be the first to say a year ago i would selfishily say, no marriage, no kids no family, surely he would wait until after. See I found myself limiting what a relationship was designed to be. What hollywood has portrayed dating to be, it's not, because the Lord is not in it. My new perspective is in the song above, it says

"For eternity All my heart will give, all the glory to your name!"

The man my soul loves and longs to be with, is waiting, and if that would be his desire to take me now, before my husband could come, so be it, for He who has promised is faithful and although i have a passion to be married one day, I want to do his will.

It is:

When you as a single woman or man have made pursuing the Lord the primary purpose of your life, that the Lord knows he had your heart, and allows another man or woman into your life, to be your "other half" to bring glory to HIM! Though you may say ok hannah, in a perfect world...but this is it, this is what its all about bringing glory to his name. It it is a promise from our sweet and merciful saviour because He loves you!! He longs to give you that man/woman that will love you as he does, but we have to be willing to wait. Waiting means, not settling, not saying "for the time being" or even thinking how else am I going to learn? Waiting means depending on the Lord, allowing him to shape you, and take FULL advantage of your singleness, because one day it will never be the same, don't waste time, don't miss out on what the Lord wants you to see because you are so wrapped up in dating. Rest in the Lords peace and know, He is and will always be MORE than enough!

-Hann

Ever wonder why?!

Wow it has been so long since I have blogged, although there are so many things I could write about from things that have taken place in the last few months,(those updates will come) However, I can't help but share with what comes to mind right now.

Day after day, we live our lives as though they are ours to live, we go about our day like we have all the say in the world, never taking the time to stop and think, What day will be my last? I'm not trying to be morbid when I write this, I am just beginning to realize not only how important it is to grasp the joy of each day, but to live a life asking only one question, Lord what is your purpose for me today? Hours ago, i had a heart to heart with my mother over the phone, although i am not proud to admit this, and i know she will not mind me sharing, but I was at a place of pride and discontentment. Because it is not easy to admit being in a state like this, it took my mother being firm with me to say, Hannah, slow down, stop and tell me what your feeling. As i sat there quiet and unsure how to respond, i realized, i have yet to stop. Each day I wake up to a to do list, I have been watching each moment of the day pass by viewing it not as a opportunity but as a thing to check off. Now wonder I find discontentment, now wonder i have felt no peace. Don't get me wrong, I have had many times of Joy, peace and even rejuvination, but it wasn't until today how much i have realized the importance of letting go. Not just from big decisions that face me each day, but from things that i have no control over. I can no longer, and will no longer live a life for earthly things, but will press on toward the goal that I will never be blessed with here, but only in eternity. It's really made me evaluate what it is i have been finding my worth in, I say I live a life that lives to glorify the Lord, but have i really been? Although things on earth like school, and even sorority can be important, do i really just see them as temporary things, or do i put more value in them, than there truly is. This is so hard to see, and more so even say. Two weeks ago at Momentum (Which I will blog about soon!) Dad spoke on pride. At the beginning i would not have considered myself in this category, however at the end when he named off characteristics of being prideful, he mine as well have called me by name. The main one that stuck out was:

-Quick to get angry/frustrated----This is where the enemy creeps in...

There it was, not only was I at a place of being prideful, because i had taken on so much, not wanting to share my responsibilities due to a fear of failure, I needed and still need to realize, that no matter how many things i choose to take on, lead, or even succeed in, NOTHING will fill me like the LORD does. Only He can bring me that joy and contentment that I am longing to feel again. So now, though decisions involving my future are to come, the main being ( What will my major be? :/ ) I have decided to let it go, He is in control, and will not lead me astray, He works all things for good, and even though i may not understand all His ways now, I am promised, it will one day be worth it! 

-Hannah

The Shack

I feel like i have found 2 hidden treasures lately that i can't help but share...

This first one is the book, The Shack 

It's about a man's journey through forgiveness due to a tragedy that no parent could ever dream of facing. Although there are points that are hard to endure, and even at times, just plain weird the message is something I cannot help but share. After reading this book I not only came to realize how much I was limiting my God, but I even came to realize this God that I say I love and long to know more and more, cannot be put into a category. He is so great, so powerful and so many things, His creations and He himself  truly are Indescribable! In fact in the book the author makes a point to say, if all of God could be fathomed, what would be the mystery, the challenge of waking up and longing to know him more? That would be lost, after all who wants a God that we understand all of, I don't know about you but I long for a God who will always be millions of steps ahead of me unfolding a picture that I cannot see ( even when it means not understanding) because though I sometimes wonder how tragedy does strike and hurt the ones who love him so much, we are only seeing a glimpse of what is unfolding, where as he sees the whole thing. A friend of mine couldn't have described it better. We were sitting on the pier at a friends lake house and she said this analogy I will never forget.

As humans we look through life like peaking through the cracks on the pier looking at only a small percentage of the lake. For all we know, that is it, there is no more that we can see, yet God, the creator himself sees the whole lake. Although he sees the part that we are only seeing he sees what has come, and has yet to come for his dearly beloved. 

So at times when it seems hard, don't lose faith.

"He who promised is faithful" and when we trust him, we allow him to ( in His timing) reveal his plan for our lives. I don't want to go into to many more details explaining the book because I really want you to read this book! Though at times it may be hard not to put down because it seems "way out of the box" remember, We cannot limit God and God can choose to reveal himself for just what we need! 

I'll write about the second book I have come to love to in my next post, but until then I'll leave you with a quote from The Shack...

"An Infinite God can give all of Himself to each of His children. He does not distribute Himself that each may have a part, but to each one He gives all of Himself as fully as if there were no others."

-A. W. Tozer

Lead Me To The Cross

Remember...

Redemptions hill where your blood was spilled for my ransom!

I was at church the other night and the guy who lead worship had an awesome testimony. Having nearly looked death in the face he survived only through the grace of God. Though he is so thankful to be alive, he has a new perspective on life. 

Philippians 1:20-21 says 

"I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed,but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me , to live is Christ and to die is gain."

As I read this passage over and over again it finally hit me, what am I holding on to? What holds me back from truly saying, Lord if it is your desire for me to physically surrender my life, so that you may be glorified, bring it on. I found that it is pride, so many times a day I dream about the future, what will i do, when will "he" come into my life. But what about now, what is the Lord trying to teach me in this very moment. Now I am not saying the Lord is going to take my life right now, but as hard is this next sentence is to write, and I am not kidding I am fighting to say it....If my death would bring the father glory and draw one more person to his heart, then take my life so that he might gain another! As a christian, as a woman of God that is ALL that he asks of me is to give him all that I am, holding onto nothing. In other words as the song playing says "Rid me of myself, I belong to you!"

The picture above is from a showing of the cross my church did this past week. I wish I could have been there to experience that moment in person, but even a picture captured my heart. 

"Everything I once held dear, I count it all as lost."

To him be the glory FOREVR!!

-Hannah

1 Chronicles 16:8-36

Last time I wrote I shared that life hasn't been going as good as I had planned, but man now I am looking back and am so thankful for that time. After blogging i did the only thing i knew i should do and fell face down before the Lord and gave it all up!

Since then, I have been finding the most affirming scripture and am SO encouraged. I can't write them all out, but here are just a few:

"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

-James 1:2-4

"And behold, I am sending the promise of my father upon you. But stay in the city (TROY) until you are clothed with power from on high."

-Luke 24:49

"Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually"

-1 Chronicles 16:11

"May you be strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy."

-Colossians 1:11

Oh AND....

This was the intro to my quiet time this morning, written by Beth Moore:

"There is a name above all names

Let mine be lost in His

Hide me in His crimson heart

O, way of secret bliss!

One life alone is worth the find

Nail mine onto the tree

Till Jesus ever shining here

Is all beheld in me.

Bring him forth each day I live

And leave me in the tomb

I seek no glory here

Make not the smallest room

Blessed anonymity!

Count my life but loss.

Jesus the One and Only

Tread over me, Dear Cross."

"For through the law I died to the law, so that I might live to God. I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not nullify the grace of God, for if justification were through the law, then Christ died for no purpose"

-Galatians 2:19-21

Nothing  I could ever write could top this, God is GOOD!!